i started my 1st relationship at the age of 18, this journey started with a sweet beginning and ends ugly. It lasted for 5yrs, meaning all my youth were spent with him, i kind of forced him to break up with me, I'm not saying that I'm noble...but he got that girl pregnant, it's a kind of responsibility he HAS to hold...he did married that girl (Constance), hmmm...how should I say? Constance land up in hospital after swallowing 20 pills of panadols just for my 1st, I don't have the courage to do so and I don't see the need to (Why sld I? I still have my family)...well, i supposed he's having those precious moment with his wife & children(child)...Elaine said I'm strong to hold myself from calling him, but hor~
Elaine...wanna tell u..I'm not strong..just that my heart tells me not to do it...If I called, what will Constance think? If I called, 1st will have to hide from Constance that I called. I don't want to mess up their life.
